Well once again Richard i have got through another sad and lonely Christmas without you and our darling dogs, our family which i am hoping and praying are now with you, it is just me you are all waiting on to join you, then we will be a family again, i pray for that day i see that lovely smile on your face and the dogs tails wagging in happiness...

Well it is another start to a brand New Year and my PP-MS is getting worse but for some reason i am still here, dont know why as in my mind, i was the one to go first, not you...

I will forever cherish the memories of our years together, the best 20 years of my life, our life...Thank you Richard for everything you done for me, i could not have had a better husband, you was 100% reliable, no one can ever match your love, want and loyalty to me, as i love you so so much but never told you, i am telling you now, over and over again...I love you Richard, i want you Richard...We will be together again, i Pray to God so many times that we will be together again, i will see that smile, that lovely round face, that healthy glow to your face you once had, even that lovely fat belly, i want to see all that again..that is the memory of you Richard i will always cherish...

Your wife forever, Jackie